These few days i have been doing loads of soul searching, finding the aim of my life and thinking back about the past. This is one of my bad habits because i always tend to think alot of what i went through before. I can say it has been a very very rough and bumpy ride but i must admit that it had been fun. Loads of fun.

Transforming from a nerdy geek to what i am today, i have never ever regret. I believe this are the stuff which made me street wise. Humans have to go through everything then its counted that u have live ur life before. As i am listening to the fast beat of the techno music from the past,

the memories just floods back everytime i listen to such songs. It has been crazy from the age of 16. Everything just gone in a flash. Those were the days. Sparks disco (located at takashimaya in the past), Wannabe (located at UE Square) and last but not least Mohd Sultan Club 3 and Club 7.

It is so ironic that i could remember every detail of those times as if it was just yesterday. If given me a chance,i would want to go through those times once again. But of cause its just all day dreaming. Those were the times when i went through so called brotherhood,betrayal,being used and getting close brushed with the law. Although friends now will tell me i am stupid but what's teenage life without learning all this? I feel i learnt alot from all the mistakes that i did and learnt to open my eyes wider to see who are the ones who will be there when you are in trouble.In the past , people want to talk about brotherhood? Maybe. But sadly, the world now has changed so much. Money rules the world now and being someone who is financially capable, you will have loads of friends. Trust me. Everyday you will recieve calls to ask you to go out for coffee,meals and drinking sessions.Without that,your phone will be as silent as the dead.

But i am also not implying that everyone is like that. There are nice friends who will stick with u through thick and thin no matter what. So maybe i am the unlucky one to get those so called brothers. Well everything is destined. It happens for a reason. As long as don't repeat the same mistakes and look forward. Life has so much to enjoy. The environment don't make human stress. Humans make themselves stress because of their actions. Like the saying goes, you reap what u sow. Be it good or bad, i strongly believe in that because i have seen it with my own eyes. So try to cherish and treasure those close to you and choose wisely. When you lose them there is no turning back. I have lost a couple of them and i really regret. Hope one day i can make it up to them. I am not an angel nor a devil. I can say i am pretty much got stuck in the middle.No one is perfect.If you want to seek perfection, heaven is the only place.

Last but not least the most important is your family. I have failed as a member of the family and i really hope i have the chance to make amends. They are the people who looked after u from the beginning of your life till this moment.Let them know u love them and say it out. Don't be like me. I love them all but i just cant bring myself to say that because i feel i got no right to say that.

Hope 2009 will be a better year for everybody but brace yourselves for a rough ride as the economy is damn bad. But as long as u keep being positive,things will work out. So Happy New Year everyone and wish u all great health.