Monday, February 23, 2009 @ 2:31 AM.
Never try to cover a hole with another. Its all fated. Did a damn stupid thing and i truely believe now its not meant to be. I shall not elaborate further on what i did but i have to stop before i go back deeper again. Got to live life in a honest way. Been worrying about too many stuff and my body has grown weaker i guess. I will fall sick damn easily nowadays and its not gonna reflect good on my attendance at work. People might think i chao keng but i don't give a damn.
Time to really reflect what i want in life already. i am 25 this year but still not much achievement in life. Got to buck up and got to build my future so that i will not starve later on. Been having too much fun and other nonsense and time to wake up. This is not the way or i will die in the future.
My manager always ask me what i want to do and i cant answer her always cuz i seriously don't know what i want to do and how to plan for the future. I am always a bad planner and i want to change to be a good planner. I always have a weak mind and not enough determination to do what i want. I got to change that if not defintely gonna suffer. Hope i can achieve that and prove it to people around me. Got to do it!
